Back again… *cue tune to Eminem’s “Without Me”*
I’m back and I’m better *like Bryson Tiller*
Okay I’ll chill with the song references, I’m sorry.
I’m back, back from where? Well I have been kind of MIA, but that’s not what I meant.
I’m back as in, me with purple hair is back. That’s right y’all, purple hair. I have purple nails too, both quite fitting for October because it’s Domestic Violence Awareness Month. That’s not why I dyed my hair purple though.
I dyed it because I needed something new and fresh to match my mood (and the blonde that I was rockin was too basic, it was killing me). Why did I need something new? Well, the answer to that is simple: my happiness.
Lately, despite all the bad things life has thrown my way, I’ve been pretty happy. I’m really making it a point to enjoy what matters and live in the present. Stressing over finances has been especially keeping me down, but I’m trying to quite literally take one day at a time when it comes to those. In the end, I think I can say with a little confidence that my parents will have my back if I need, but we’ll see.
Anyway, back to my happiness. I already sorta discussed it in my last post (at least I think I did). I’m really just trying to move on from a lot in my life and changing up my hair is an outward expression of me doing such. I feel like a whole new person, not just because my hair is different but because I think I’m like glowing inside and out?
I love myself. I truly do. I don’t look in the mirror and see flaws anymore, and I’ve quit letting other people point out flaws/make me feel like I have them. So many of the people who have made me feel the worst about myself are the very people I would’ve sworn loved and cared for me.
Over the past few weeks I’ve had the most extreme wake up call that this wasn’t in fact true. People who love and care for you respect you, they treat you as an equal, they actually show you and communicate their feelings.
It’s all good now though, I hold no hard feelings against anyone, I’m just pushing forward. So, catch me as the purple haired girl doing big things 👌🏽