Yesterday a beautiful sister of mine wrote me that she had read my post and that she loved me and it was honestly the most heart warming thing. It’s strange because I really don’t expect that anybody actually reads this blog. That’s why I write from the heart with no regret.
It’s nice to see that people do actually read it, and not just any people, but some of my friends. This post already sounds a lot more optimistic than yesterday’s right?
That’s the thing about bad days, they are days, and you can push through to have more good days than bad ones.
I’m still really stressed and have a lot on my mind/ plater, but I have decided to try to channel that stress into other things. I know I should be careful about essentially ignoring my stress to keep life moving, but it’s literally the only way I know how to function.
(haha am I even functioning? who knows?)
Before I continue, I just want to let it be known (if I haven’t done so enough already), that I do not write these posts for attention. I write these posts to get my thoughts out and relieve some of my anxiousness. I write these posts so that if someone who can relate to them reads them, they understand that they are not alone.
Alone. It’s literally all I’ve really ever been in life. On the good days, I like to spin it into “independent” because it sounds nicer. Am I an independent person? Absolutely. Is that always entirely by choice? Hell naw.
I’m like the poster child to represent all children who have been lost in the mix as a result of divorce. That’s really what it boils down to. My parents absolutely needed to get divorced, and I by no means hate them for it, but it happens to be the source of a lot of my problems.
It’s okay though. Just like every other day of the past 12-13 years of my life, this “independent” child is gonna do whatever she has to to make sure she’s good.
I read this thing the other day online that I felt was a perfect description of me, it reminded me of just who I am and who I am gonna be it read:
” She’s got those warrior goddess, gypsy soul, magical witch bitch type of vibes- unknown”
So that is what I leave you with today, and remember, good can come from the bad.