I’ve been pretty bad at this blogging thing lately, my apologies. Life has been hectic and I haven’t really been up for writing.
Writing keeps me sane though, so I really should try to keep up with is. I have decided to try following some prompts every once in a while, that way, even when I am not feelin it, I can have something to write about.
It’s funny actually, I blogged this week for my Human Rights class, but I haven’t really been about blogging my own personal stuff. I wanna just blame hormones, but its really so much more than that.
2018 has proven to be very similar to 2017 in some ways so far, and no matter how hard I fight, it seems to just be getting harder and harder to change things. I know that growing isn’t painless, but I sure wish it was.
At this point I’m sort of over everything, just really indifferent. There are a few things that have brought me joy though. Actually, there are a few people who have brought some joy to my life lately.
Firstly, I reconnected with my high school best friend recently. Even though I totally suck at texting back sometimes, it really is nice to have her back. I should probably let her know that. There’s just something so comforting about being able to talk to people who for the most part get you. She’s been here to listen to my 2018 struggles thus far and I am so appreciative of it.
Secondly, my best guy friend and I have chatted a bit recently, and I love it. He has helped me through so much more than I am willing to admit. He is my go-to person for literally anything , and I am blessed to have him. We can go extended periods of time without talking, but when we do talk it feels as though time hasn’t gone by.
Lastly, I have a new guy friend. He’s the nicest human, I did not know nice guys like him to exist to be honest. (No shade to my best guy friend, but even he isn’t this nice). This kid is beautiful. He’d probably feel weird about me saying that, but have you ever met anyone who is just beautiful? Like you can’t exactly pinpoint it, but they’re just great? I doubt he’s flawless, but it is refreshing that people like him exist. I thoroughly enjoy any time spent talking to or hanging out with him, and it’s been a while.
So, even though this post started out on a sort of negative note, writing it has reminded me that I have so much to be happy about. I’ve always had tons to be happy about, and for that I am blessed. I guess what I am really bad at is pausing and reflecting on all the good things I’ve got going on, and all the good people I actually have in my life.