Growing up, I was taught to treat others the way I want to be treated, and it’s something I really took to heart.
Something I wish I took more to heart is the fact that people can only treat you how you allow them to.
I’ve been alive for almost 22 years and that fact is just now really hitting me. I have let way too many people treat me in ways I don’t deserve.
I truthfully don’t know what’s good with me to be honest. Like, I assume and expect the worse from people, but at the same time I always try wayyyy too hard to see the good in them. Quite honestly, it makes no sense, I make no sense.
Like, I know people are awful, but I still hold on to this hope that maybe they aren’t as awful as I think.
I know how I deserve to be treated, and instead of running for the hills when I am not treated as I am supposed to be, I stick around hoping for change. Like sis, get it together. *inserts facepalm emoji*
I have to be able to draw the line, to find some sort of balance between having faith in people and knowing when to just drop them.
I don’t want to be a pessimistic ass person who hates everyone, but I don’t want to be naive about things either. I’ve been known to stick around people for longer than I should have in the past and I really need to cut it out.
The second someone shows their true colors, the second I am treated in a way I don’t deserve I should just cut them out, and that’s that.
A true goddess would not stand for someone getting her worth all fucked up, so that shit ends today. And that’s that.