It’s one of those times again, I’m cranky as all hell.
I’m just sorta fed up with not being treated how I deserve to be by everyone.
It’s quite shitty though, knowing your worth. No one else ever seems to really know it.
I’m tired. I feel like people should have to know what it feels like to not have me around. Then maybe we’d see who really gives a damn.
I try really hard not to expose my crankiness to people but sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes I get really frustrated because for me, cranky means emotional.
Like, I can’t just be angry. I’m angry and sad. So when I’m cranky I wanna cry and then people take it as something more than it is.
That’s if I do cry in front of them. I find myself keeping a lot of my cranky pent up inside because I don’t want to cry in front of certain people. I don’t want them to have the validation of me crying over them, and I don’t want them to think I’m an emotional wreck.
Im just a sensitive little flower. It’s both my greatest attribute and my greatest flaw.